Shooting Stars + Seedpods

by Angeliska on November 21, 2009

magnolia pods
(Forest Queen by Lindsey Carr)

At last, I am rousing myself from my haze of hiding
in the tiny seed-pod cave. I have been handed a giant
mug of strong coffee (oh dear!) and am experimenting
with not taking painkillers with the aim of actually
accomplishing something for the first time in days.

snail_med
If you could combine these two creatures, it would equal my current totem.
Puny and wee and not very fast. I am a baby possumsnail!

It’s hard to comprehend that nearly a week has passed.
I’ve been taking it so slow, being very cozy, and very
coddled and swaddled! My full focus has been on healing
my body and spirit, and I am happy to report that both
are fully on the mend – thanks to the handiwork of
my very talented and generous doctor and the good
wishes of all of you! I truly feel that the positive outcome
of this ordeal was brought about by all the hopeful
energy and bright light that has been sent my way.
I know that it helped me be so much less afraid,
and took a fiery broom to the fearful and cobwebby
eaves of my heart. Whoa. I know! It’s true, though.

leonids-1

The night after my surgery, I struggled to see the window
from my hospital bed. We turned out all the lights in hopes
of seeing flashes of falling stars from the Leonid meteor shower.
Did you catch them? It’s one of my favorite things to watch.

tiny stars

The outcome of the surgery was far better than
I had ever hoped: they were able to do a laprascopy,
and remove only the offending cyst/ovary and some
endometrial adhesions they found, but left everything
else in place! Hooray! My other ovary looks perfect,
also – which I am thrilled about. Apparently there are
photographs, which I haven’t gotten to see yet.
Very curious indeed to peer into my innerworkings
and glimpse me own guts! I am told that they are
very pretty. Thankfully, the recovery time has been
greatly reduced, and I hope to be back in action
very soon. I’ve been divinely supine, practicing
being very, very still and letting myself be taken
care of. My friends and family have been so kind,
bringing me food, tea, treats and flowers!
I have received so many sweet messages and
parcels that have lifted my spirits enormously.
I would like to say thank you, with every fibre
of my being, to everyone for your all help.
You have no idea what a huge difference it has made!
Everyday, I can feel my body slowly fixing itself,
stitches knitting my skin back together and
everything learning how to work properly again.

sore legs
(Photograph from Margaret M. de Lange‘s book Daughters)

I feel like I’ve been out of my body for too long,
that there’s been a disconnect that’s had me out
of sorts for awhile. I feel ready to come back to it,
make friends and inhabit it more fully, more joyfully.
I can’t wait to feel ready to dance, to ride my bicycle,
to romp in piles of leaves and walk in the woods.
Soon, soon!

(p.s. As per usual lately, the provenance of these images
are mysterious to me. If they are yours, or you know who
made them, do enlighten me so I may give credit where it’s due!)

13 comments

I’m glad to hear that everything went well and that you recover quickly. :)

About the provenance of two of these images:

First image is by Lindsey Carr – I posted a few of her works over on Tumblr.

Last one is from Margaret M. de Lange‘s book “Daughters”, recently tumblred too.

Don’t know the origin of the other images. Sorry.

by Suzanne on November 21, 2009 at 3:27 pm. #

glad you’re feeling better :)

by Mace on November 21, 2009 at 4:42 pm. #

I am very happy to read that the poster of the best blog on the internet is mending nicely!

by Sue on November 21, 2009 at 9:48 pm. #

So glad it went well. Enjoy your cocooning and healing time, and give us more lovely blog posts when you are feeling up to it.

by Stephanie on November 22, 2009 at 4:36 am. #

Delighted to see you back! Never any doubt in my mind that you would return safe & sound & whole & etc. Enjoy your rest! If you are anything like me, you don’t take the time to lay abed and laze about when you are well, so do take advantage of it. Almost makes me want to get appendicitis or something so I can finally finish the last two chapters of The Monk.

Guts and entrails and lady innards pics! Oooh-wee.
That’s something for the scrapbook, eh? :P

by Ghoul Next Door on November 22, 2009 at 5:17 am. #

I’m so glad to hear that you are on the mend. Take care!

by Lin on November 22, 2009 at 9:07 am. #

I am so glad to hear that you are recovering, Since I have been following your blog for quit some time now, I have been checking it during the week to see when you would be back. I know the feeling of reliefe when the fear that one experience before surgery turns into the happines that everything is done. Great to hear that eveything went well, and all the best for coming days…and as several have said before, use the recovering days to have some peace and calm…..hopefully you will never have to do this again, so take the time to enjoy some relaxation. All the best from Sweden!!!!

by cecilia pawlowski on November 22, 2009 at 9:50 am. #

So glad to hear that you are having a speedy recovery! Did you get the package I sent you yet!?

by Lady Lavona on November 22, 2009 at 1:55 pm. #

I am glad that you are healing well and being well taken care of! Sending you good vibes from Detroit too!

by Jean Wilson on November 23, 2009 at 7:34 am. #

So glad to hear you are doing well! Best wishes!

by Gabriel on November 23, 2009 at 1:44 pm. #

So glad you’re on the mend!

by 'tine on November 23, 2009 at 9:35 pm. #

It is a relief to read that you are doing better. May you have a speedy recovery!

by ThedaBara on November 26, 2009 at 11:44 am. #

How nice to hear that you’re feeling better and everything is at its right place with nothing in excess burdening it.
Speedy recovery!!

by perfumeshrine on December 2, 2009 at 4:50 pm. #

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